05-diaries

diaries

We all have our moments of strengths and weaknesses............there are innumerable feelings attached with such moments.........some negative, some positive........sometimes we r steeped in lethargy.....at other times, we are bouncing with high spirits......i guess all this is part of our growing up, as individuals......otherwise we wud'nt be humans, wud we..?........

the negativity in some of these scribbles is but witness to the downs in life, that we tend to go thro'..........we can but laugh at these ex-pressions, once we are out of it......once upon a time these were the outpourings of a heart that was wrenched in pain.......today i treat these as that much poetic ex-pression.......an essential part of the growth procedure.....

1) kal tak, luthfon ki chah ne marne na diya......
aaj kaza ki chaah humein jeene nahi deta........

2) zindagi se toh, hum kuch nahi maang rahe...
bus maut se ek mulaakaat chahthe hain......

3) waise bhi jeevit nahi hai, zindagi humaari ......
bas iske shav ke bojh ko uthaarna chahthe hain....
isliye maut ki justaju karthe hain.....

4) ya khuda, kya zindagi baqshi hai tune....
har saans pe is bhent ka bojh hai....

5) dard jo tumne diya...
kasam khuda ki....itna hai.....
hansi ka bojh, honton se uthaya nahi jaatha.....

6) lutf-e-zindagi uthaana, apna maqsad nahi.......
bojh bani hai zindagi , ab toh...
bas dhoye chale jaa rahe hain ise,
maut ki justaju mein......

7) Fire thou hast sent me..
I did take it..
Now ask me to smile....
How can I??
The fire thou sent...
Hast burnt my smile.......!!!!!

8) mehroom nahi, massarraton se zindagi..
har massarrat zindagi se mehroom hai..
isliye, kaza ki justaju mein..
junoon hadh se guzra chahtha hai....!!!!!!

9) maana ke zindagi dene waala khuda hai magar
maara jisne humein bemaut, kisne jaana uska dagar...!!!!

10) Kuch nahi hai dene ke liye, ashkon ke siwai....
par ise toh humein peena hai....
aahein tujhe mubaarakbaad hi dethi hain,
ae nishaanebaaz,...kya achook nishaana tha.....!!!!

11)Those that see ur brilliance, call u God..
U r but a rock to me.....
U hurt me, whenever i lean on u.......

12)Die(!)..if u must...
die a physical death...!!!!
do not love..and torture thine heart..
into Dying with every breath...!!!!!!!!

let me end on a positive note...............

life, like a many coloured rainbow.......
shows its various hues,at various times...
fly thro' the red.....like a dove flying from a tempest....
there r calmer shores awaiting a weather-beaten bird......

thanks for being with me till here...........deby

04-deedaar

-deedar

likhna chahthe hain, bas kuch tere naam....
shikayat ??.... ya phir sandesha??......
humein khabar nahi.....
ubharthe doobthe saanson mein mere..
yun ghula hua hai tu.....
aankhein band kar sochein tujhe
toh rag -rag mein mere tu hai shaamil
jigar ko mere cheerke dekhe koi...
lahoo ki jageh tujhko paaye
khuli aankhein albatta, hain
tujhko dhundke pathra gayeen...
yun tune tarsaya hai humein
ek deedar ke vaaste, tere....
ya khuda......
teri bandagi mein humne hi
koi kasar chod di hai shayad..
ke aaj hum dasht-o-sehra ki
khaufnaak veeraniyon mein
tanhai ka chaadar odhe, yun ......
is kadar bhatak rahe hain....
khudki parchayi mein shaamil
uski parchayi ko talaashthe huey..
na jaane kis manzil ki ore..
kadam humaare badthe chale jaa rahe hain....
na ummeed , na aarzoo hai dil mein
phir bhi , chale ja rahe hain, chale ja rahe hain..
anjaan raahon par yun...chale jaa rahe hain....

03-ibaadat teri hum karthe rahenge

ibaadat teri hum karthe rahenge

tanhai ki andheri galiyon mein
aawaara phir rahe the
tumhaare kadmon ki aahat suni..
toh tumhaare peeche ho liye..

apne aagosh ki narm chaanv mein..
tumne panaah di humein..
dimaag main jwaala-mukhi sa
phat-tha hua is aag par..
baarish ki boondein ban-kar tum gire

tum woh shaak kaise ho sakthe ho..
jismein patthiyaan na hon..
humaara dil gawaah hai
ke tum woh vishaal vriksh ho..
jiske tale humein chaanv naseeb hui ..
ibaadat ke laayak tum kaise nahi ho
tumhari aankhon mein humne,
khuda ki roshni dekhi hai...

khuda bhi maana toh khuda, warna pathar..
tum toh jeetha-jaagtha ehsaas ho...
meri doobthi nayya ka woh maajhi ho..
jiska mere saahil ko intezaar hai.....

pathwaar tumhaare haath mein
de di hai, humne..
phir humein paar laga do..
ya doobne ke liye chod do...

ibaadat tumhari hum karthe rahenge
mitne talak..
phir chaahe mere is diye ko ..
tum hawa do ya bujha do..

mandir mein, masjid mein
sukoon humne talaashi hai..
humaare is soone daaman mein
pyaar na sahi..
apna dard hi daal do.....

02-life................

weary and exhausted...these eyes skyward i lift.... my mind teems with questions....... when, where, how...why...???? as though somewhere in its womb.. the sky holds all the answers ... the same timeless, ageless questions..... a hundred times have i sought to unravel .. these mysteries that so shroud my mind... why am i here..???? where do i go from here...??? why do i live and breathe... the same life that thousands before me have lived.... the same deaths that thousands before me have died.... why do i feel ??/ the same feelings that thousands before me have felt feelings of joy ... feelings of pain... elation one day... anguish another .... we win some.. we lose some... today i laugh... tomorrow i weep... one moment i am in love with life.. another moment i wish nothing more than to die... the wisdom of the sages.. the foolishness of the simpletons.... the heights of ectasy... the depths of despair.. the innumerous achievements of mankind.. coupled with all its failings ... does'nt everything come to naught in one sweeping moment of realization... that evrything is but a passing phase.... weary and exhausted, these eyes skyward i lift.. the skies tell the same story that they told me ages ago..... nothing is eternal... it is all but a passing phase... and yet i toil...day after day... to live this life... that thousands before me have lived.... only to go one day... the way, thousands before me have gone.....